how can u fuck me so emotionally

when his action is slow, she said, matt, fuck me faster, faster. then she looked into his eyes.
i'm in front of screen, while thinking, if i were her, i would say at that moment, baby, how can u fuck me so emotionally.

元旦下午有太陽，在房間里，還算暖。實在無所事事，找出朋友們那邊搜來的碟看，選了「9 songs」。
沒想到這六十幾分鐘的片子，一直看看停停直到晚上。

看掉五十分鐘的時候我還只是把它當作三級片。他們的對話少的可憐，在歌曲與歌曲之間就只是做愛。做到看的人好像都有些疲倦了。於是我想，與我看過的其他情色片相比，它實在有些乏味啊。
直到他說，you're isolated in a vast, empty continent. Claustrophobia and agoraphobia in the same place. Like two people in a bed. 直到他們去看Michael Nyman的演奏會，她穿著小背心和內褲跳舞，這片子才開始看起來不同。
她說要走了，去美國。他們親吻，然後他緊緊擁抱她。在這個擁抱里，他們才明確了互相佔有的關係。然而也是這關係的終止。

我喜歡最後的那首歌，
i never thought i'd see her go away
she learned i loved her today
never thought i'd see her cry
and i learned how to love her today
never thought i'd rather die
then try to keep her by my side
Now she's gone love burns inside me
Now she's gone love burns inside me

然後一切結束了，他說了，it's beautiful。在茫茫南極的冰原上。

而我想起他赤裸跳進大海里，對她大喊，i love you.

我才相信，這是一部愛情片。