Have you ever gone frustrated

I tell you...to commit suiside, you probably just need three things...some pills, The gloomy Sunday, and The Hours.Well this only works if you're female...and if you're frustrated, that'll be perfect. Because theoretically, such spirit condition is invincible.

I was, once, thinking about that...to end this tiny, useless life. That was strange, because after you decided to do it, you'd possibly began to think about one thing: HOW? For me, I hate the way that 維吉尼亞 killed herself...yes that was beautiful and mysterious, but its hard and painful. And fall down from the 10th floor? no, not like that way either. Pills would be perfect for me...but the thing was, I couldn't find any, none of my family members had a problem of sleeping, and they were all, all, all so damm happy...except me. I guess it's because I was clever then, I could see through things, I had visions in my mind, I had voices in my ears and I had another world in my deep, deep heart. Was that crazy? no. You think it's insane because you can't see. Because you had never,ever,gone frustrated...

Well I'm happy that I no longer have those "stupid" thoughts, not any more. The visions, the voices, the world, everything's gone, and I feel much better now, and I'm perfectly as dull as anybody else around me, like the damm zombies.

維吉尼亞 figured that out: It is possible to die.
I did, too, only that her book chose not to let me do it, but herself.

Have you ever gone fru...? if it's a yes, I give you two choices: one, pick some stones on your way to the river; two, live, and live as you'll never wake up and see how this world looks like.


for those who's surviving