i am not smiling , but you konw i will be happy

　 朋友當時用一如既往幼稚的語氣向我推薦了這部片子，我自然地認為這大概與之前諸多動畫一般，毫不客氣地向你兜售錦上添花的美好，需要的只是，我願意將某個可以看書可以逛街可以工作可以胡思亂想的下午時間讓給這部動畫片，揣著不痛不癢的好心情去接受欣賞，隨後忘記。
　　
　　但是，好吧，事實上一點也並不如我所想。
　　
　　其實，看電影的這個下午，我一直悶悶不樂，我的生活又被某些事情打攪了，又開始一團糟，熬夜，不規律的飲食，電腦輻射，運動一推再推，亂七八糟的房間，空著的水杯，我發現自己已經有了獨處的癖好，類似病態的強迫症一般，我不能接受無計劃的打擾，這太容易讓我自暴自棄了。我知道這樣不好，一系列古怪的心理和習慣把我折磨得心力交瘁，但好吧，也正中下懷地讓我心滿意足。
　　
　　偏偏，電影的色調灰暗，一開始便死氣沉沉，配音的語氣平靜得讓人壓抑，我也許無數次想按下停止鍵，放棄繼續。但還好，我沒這樣做。
　　
　　現在看完了，雖然我還是一個人對著螢幕悄悄地流眼淚，但是我知道陰霾的下午我的心情終於有了一點光亮。
　　
　　我不想解釋為什麼這部片子為什麼好，到底好在何處，因為不是每個人都可以恰當地把感覺還原，我不喜歡文字描述出的幾乎必然的偏離。可是，我想說的是，觸動心靈的機會不多。在這個糟糕的下午，是這個片子讓我得到了足夠的補償。
　　
　　我和大多數人一樣，喜歡和記住的，就是這些話。
       
       The reason i forgive you is because you are not perfect.
　　You are imperfect,and so am i.
　　All humans are imperfect,even the man outside my apartment who litters.

　　When i was young,i wanted to be anybody but myself.
　　Dr Bernard Hazelhof said if i was on a desert island then i would have to get used to my own company – just me and the coconuts.
　　He said i would have to accept myself,my warts and all,and that we don』t get to choose our warts.
　　They are a part of us and we have to live with them.

　　We can,however,choose our friends and i glad i have chosen you.

　　Dr Bernard Hazelhof also said the everyone’s lives and like a very long sidewalk.
　　Some are well paved.
　　Others,like mine,have cracks,banana skins and cigarette butts.
　　Your sidewalk is like mine but probably not as many cracks.
　　Hopefully,one day our sidewalks will meet and we can share a can of condensed milk.

　　You are my best friend.
　　You are my only friend.
　　
　　　　
　　 所以，max說，do not worry about not smiling, my mouth hardly ever smiles, but it does not mean i am not smiling inside my brain.雖然我現在還是擠不出一點笑容，但是我也許過得並不糟糕。
　　
　　 P.S. one day our sidewalks will meet , right?