But I Am Not Genius...

I am a common person.
But when I was born, I have keep to looking for a good teacher who can lead me from the darkness and a friendship which as the actor Will has already have.

I was struck by the beauty of the dialogue:

CHUCKIE：It's a way outta here.

WILL：What do I want a way outta here for? I want to live here the rest of my life. I want to be your next-door neighbor. I want to take out kids to little league together up Foley Field.

CHUCKIE：Look, you're my best friend, so don't take this the wrong way, but in 20 years, if you're livin' next door to me, comin' over watchin' the Patriots』 games and still workin' construction, I'll kill you. And that's not a threat, that's a fact. I』ll kill you.

WILL：Chuckie, what are you talkin'...

CHUCKIE：Listen, you got somethin' that none of us have.

WILL：Why is it always this? I owe it to myself? What if I don't want to?

CHUCKIE：Fuck you. You owe it to me. Tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and I'll be fifty and I'll still be doin' this. And that's all right 'cause I'm gonna make a run at it. But you, you're sittin' on a winning lottery ticket and you're too much of a pussy to cash it in. And that's bullshit 'cause I'd do anything to have what you got! And so would any of these guys. It'd be a insult to us if you're still here in twenty years.

WILL：You don't know that.

CHUCKIE：Let me tell you what I do know. Every day I come by to pick you up, and we go out drinkin' or whatever and we have a few laughs. But you know what the best part of my day is? The ten seconds before I knock on the door 'cause I let myself think I might get there, and you'd be gone. I'd knock on the door and you wouldn't be there. You just left.

CHUCKIE (cont'd)：Now, I don't know much. But I know that.


Are you looking for a friend like Chuckie，a friend who is always by your side, considerate of your feelings,think more of you even than yourself thinking?
Are you looking for that?
Chuckie know exactly that if Will go the way he could. It means that Will will go far away from him,from his life. Maybe in the furture,they do not have occurring together.

But he still say the words that actuate Will to change and pursue real and the happy life.

I was moved to tears when I saw that plot. What I tried hard to find,but did not see in the real life that happened in the movie.

When I feel disappointed at the realities,I alway remember a common boy called Chuckie.


SEAN ： Stayed up half the night thinkin' about it. Something occurred to me. I fell into a deep, peaceful sleep, and I haven't thought about you since. You know what occurred to me?
SEAN ： You're just a kid. You don't have the faintest idea of what you're talkin' about.
SEAN： So, if I asked you about art, you'd probably give me the skinny of Every art book ever written. Michelangelo. You know a lot about him: life's work, political aspirations, him and the Pope, sexual orientation, the whole works, right? But I bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You've never actually stood there and looked up at the beautiful ceiling, seen that.
SEAN：If I ask you about women, you'll probably give me a syllabus of your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can't tell me what if feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy. You're a tough kid.

　　And I ask you about war, you'd probably, uh, throw Shakespeare at me, right?"once more unto the breach, dear friends..." But you've never bee near one. You've never held your best friend's head in your lap, and watched him gasp his last breath, lookin' to your for help.

　　I ask you about love, you'll probably quote me s sonnet. But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable, known someone that could level you with her eyes, feelin' like God put and angel on earth just for you,who could rescue you from the depths of hell, and you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anyghin, through cancer. And you wouldn't know about sleeping sittin' up in a hospital room for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply to you. You don't know about real loss, 'cause that only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself.

　　I doubt you've ever dared to love anybody that much. I look at you. I don't see an intelligent, confident man. I see a cocky, scared-shitless kid. But you're a genius, Will. No one denies that. No one could possible understand the depths of you. But you presume to know everything about me, because you saw a painting of mine. You ripped my fuckin' life apart. You're an orphan, right? Do you think I know the first thing about how hard your life has been? How you feel? Who you are? Because I read 奧利佛 TWist?Does that encapsulate you? Personally, I don't give a shit about all that. Because you know what? I can't learn anything from you I can't read in some fuckin' book. Unless, you wanna talk about you, who you are. Then I'm fasci ated. I'm in. But you don't want to do that, do you, sport? You're terrified of what you might say.

   Even though I have met some really jolly good teachers. But I also met some teachers who is wicked and left a shadow in my childhood.
   But I never met a teacher like him: Sean.
   Let you know your heart deeply!
   If I really have in the really life,it could be good movies and books.

   I am not a genius.
   But I got one thing that Will does not have.a nice family,which is so precious to me. Because compare with Will it give me the two things I lacked.


PS :
Thank you for huanhuanhaohaoshangban’s collection of the lines.