阿餮
2010-09-23 07:19:32
we r all the weather man
l remember once...imagining what my life would be like,what l'd be like.
l pictured having all these qualities.Strong, positive qualities...that people could pick up on from across a room.
But as time passed...few ever became any qualities l actually had.
And all the possibilities l faced,and the sorts of people l could be...all of them got reduced every year to fewer and fewer...
until finally they got reduced to one...to who l am.
And that's who l am...the weatherman.
我想無論是什麼電影,只要看到主角是尼古拉斯凱奇,我只有坐在一邊邊看邊拍手的份。
I AM A WEATHER MAN。
站在幕布前面,假裝你的後面有著各種各樣的彩色小圖標告訴你明天是晴是雨,假裝你可以預測風向,可以避開晴天劈下的旱雷。
渴望生活充滿激情,渴望滿足父親的期望,渴望孩子們可以環繞在自己周圍看著自己就像以前自己看著父親一樣那麼崇敬。一直質問自己,是哪裡做錯了?為什麼兒子吸食大麻被戒毒顧問騷擾,為什麼女兒過早體重超標還被叫做駱駝趾?沒有氣象學的學位卻可以成天微笑假裝瀟灑地告訴別人明天早晚溫差會超過18華氏,誰可以有這個權利?
舉行一場提前的葬禮,自己坐在賓客中間,旁邊是你的摯愛,環顧周圍設想真正到了那一天的情景。外面是下了整整一個冬天的雪。父母給小孩的影響是至深的。一直拼命到最後,學會撒謊,學會抱怨,學會爾虞我詐,還要保持心境純良,這不是誰都可以做到的難題。怎麼樣在四十歲的時候,還可以在來父親面前痛哭出聲?
KIDS,THIS IS THE SHIT LIFE.