Your should control your life, don't you?

      Right after an exhausted day, I watched this amazing movie. interestingly enough, apart from those excellent Hollywood actresses, the music composer Philip Glass interests me. The music in this movie is so narrative and dark, the gradual progressiveness has a magic power to guide you slide into the deepest place of heroins' hearts. Glass is also the composer of Errol Morris' controversial documentary The Thin Blue Line on which topic I just finished my essay.
      Actually, I don't quite understand the poetic phrases they use in the film, especially the words come from the English psycho writer. But I like the feeling of uncomprehending because it will always gives you something new when you grow older and when you look it twice.
      
    "Oh, Mrs.Dallowey, always give parties to cover silence"
        "You cannot find peace by avoiding life"
             "Dear Leonerd, to look life in the face, always to look life in the face and to know it for what it is; least to know it
                            to love it for what it is, and then to put it away "

       What I learn from this movie is that we don't always get reasons to be happy, neither do we need reason to be depressed. Sometime it's just our feeling that guides us wandering in this life expedition. We have rights to put it off, and we have rights to say no to this life, most importantly, we have rights to stop it and prevent it from hurting us any more even though those thinking are despicable to others who fit in the society so well and pretended to be ok with everything that they gradually lose their subjectivity.
      Would that be selfish if you left people who loved you the most and cared you the most, would that be a filthy thing to abandon the one who loved you the most in order to pursuing your own happiness. This is the toughest question that haunting me at this moment. It's the question about whether you are the centre of the world or the people you love is the centre. But to me, at least in this movie, You are the most important one in the whole universe because only you know who you are, most time vaguely. But as long as there is still something you want to do or there is a tiny little chance that might change your life a little bit, it will be worthy the shot.
       
       "Leonerd, always the years between us, always the love, always the hours......"