Trap&Dilemma

   
     從片子開始一直掉眼淚掉眼淚到片子結束。
   片子結束之後，很多人在討論片中看似複雜的人物關係，但事實上，它們根本就不重要。這部片子比起通常深刻的劇情片來說，不如將它比喻成伍爾夫那樣意識流的散文小說。
   
   我知道這種沉重就像認識一個老朋友，我與它一起生活時時刻刻。大學之後，我一直在努力地迴避與它共同生活。但它無處不在。我理解它，仇視它，逃避它，也知道我受限於它，此生如此。
   
   不要把女人的竭斯底里看作一種不可理喻的瘋狂。它是我此生知道的最悲哀的情緒。
   我一直把它叫作「困境」。
   I'm always fighting this dilemma on my own yet it is destined to be on the weak side. It is like a dilemma that traps you there since you were born and a dilemma obstructing you from the outside world which you recognize clearly but never be able to break through however hard you struggle to.
     It's pathetic to be a woman and it's ashamed for me to finally admit it no matter how reluctant I am. As you see, this is how the dilemma works.
    It's just yesterday that I talked with a friend about how wonderful it is to be a man.He couldn't understand just like any other men. Yeah, it's quite understandable that a creature obviously lacking sensibilities and sensitivities like man could not catch this idea.
   But I can. I know how it feels when I find myself weak and tiny like a clocking machine planted in my body devastating everything I built to at least pretend to be strong. I failed again and again. It's frustrating.

   I understand why men could not understand this film. This is not for them to watch so that I wouldn't rage if they treat it as trash. For men, they will never understand our hysteria and sorrow, our agony and collapse.
   Pathetic for them. Pathetic for us as well.

   And that's why I know for sure what 維吉尼亞 Woolf meant when she said "Do you think I could get out of it?"
   I know it indicated to neither her husband nor the country house. But the dilemma should be the answer. It is the dilemma that as a woman she could never get rid of, nor could we. And that's why she believed that we should face up to it. Confronting with it until we have the courage to let it go.
   No, don't take this conclusion by Woolf as a positive result. It proves that she was in such a horrible suffering. So do we. And always we will be in.