black swan

Inside everybody there's a black swan.
Black does not only stand for evil while white is not necessary pure.
Black embraces the reality and is fully open to human nature, thus it has to deal with desires which lead to unclear consequences. Compare to white, purely depresses any desire, black requires higher level of intelligence and courage.
It is easier to keep away from getting lost than trapping in and out. Those things are called experience, though which we showed our true selves and learn ourselves better. I always keep distance to the world just to protect myself and even keep the distance to myself. Getting close is warmer but hurts more, but it is this process helps us to learn and to progress.

When Nina tear her skin of a bleeding finger, I feel the exactly same torture from heart --- desire is rushing out of control. The more control, the more conflict, the more desire. Yes, too much nature ruin a people. But hiding true self is another way of ruin: either not know about yourself or too much to handle.