心中的墳墓

與其說是影評，不如說是我的影片筆記吧！

Felix, 這個因為年輕時犯下錯誤，把自己與世隔絕了40多年的男人，"I built my own jail and put myself in it"，過著沒有妻子，沒有孩子，沒有朋友的生活，"I stayed in it for 40 god damn years, no wife, no kids, no friends, no nothing, no grandchildren. I wouldn't even know how to hold a baby"，並且鎮上流傳著各種有關他的流言蜚語，然而真相鮮有人知。

他就這麼過著與世隔絕著的生活， 不想被人靠近，也不被人理解，"There is a whole a lot of things you don't know, like what a dog dreams, you can make up a story about him chasing rabbits, but you don't know if there're rabbits in there or not. And he can't tell you now, can he? People don't say what they mean, either, so you don't know anymore about them than you do about that dog's dream. That day you left my house, I saw you stopped and looked back, you want to know what could make somebody like me, well, here you are."直至Buddy的出現。

他說"For everyone like me, there's one like you."

他要為自己舉行一場葬禮，有關他自己的葬禮。他懲罰了自己40多年，那件讓他內疚、懊悔的事情，他把它公之於眾，他要為它挖一座前所未有的墳墓，空前絕後的把它埋葬。這個深沉溫情的老男人，終於在葬禮那天完成了他自己心靈的釋放。

在他自己的葬禮上，他望著那些曾經述說過他流言的小鎮居民們，第一次向他們展示自己，"I'm not a smart man or wise one, i don't know what kind of man I am, I was always restless. Though I'd see the world, but I didn't go nowhere on purpose, because I did something I was ashamed of, something I could never fix."

我想，在每個人的生命中，或多或少，或大或小總會有一些我們無法挽回的事情，我們為這些事內疚著，懊悔著，糾結著，像Felix一樣懲罰著自己。我們為何不像他一樣，也為自己辦一個葬禮，葬送掉所有的不安，救贖自己。或者在心裡挖一個墳墓，悄無聲息的把它埋葬。

祝願所有的人都能找到一個"For everyone like me, there's one like you".