Captain,Oh My Captain

        Today is the second weekend this term,Saturday. I waked up late until 9 o'clock,spending the whole afternoon in the computer class finishing the spring festival introduction done by flash. I put off this project till today,the feeling of delay is not so good.
        After handing on the CAI homework, I walked to the canteen. It turns cold recently again which makes me depressed anyway. You know,the sun haven't come up for several weeks,what was worse,the rain won't stop. I hate it so much,although I know I cannot change it. Exactly,as a strong man with a strong heart,nothing makes influence on his mood,his joy comes from his deep heart,which is different from happiness that people are longing for it from the out environment opposite to your inner.
         After that,I went to the library,two hour' reading time. Lately, out of somewhat knowledge hunger or what else, I prefer reading other books or articles to major books and academic course studying. After my analysis,it has some relationship with my comprehensive score last term. I must be honor to myself, I was in deep disappointment about such low score under the condition that it seemed I have spared no efforts to make the preparation for the final examinations.
        But the result is, I failed it. I'm a loser, totally,in terms of this consequence. I have no faith to face myself,even my parents. I aways think the others may make fun of me,because of my stupid? Oh no,nobody can regard you as a fool,even yourself. Be opposite,be confident,be in passion with your life, you are not so bad! Just because you are too strict with yourself, you push yourself to do the best in every aspects. However,baby, we are all ordinary person, we are not god,we everyone should admit your weakness,fault,shortcoming and anything not perfect,then accept all of them from your heart,trying to improve them in your best or let them alone when you are doomed to face and have no ability to change it. Only in this way, can you make redemption of yourself and your heart will be full of joy in every minute. Good night,honey!Tomorrow is another day,never never never give up.
        As a matter of fact, I was intended to write my thinking and feelings after watching the movie"the dead poetry society". It's another classic film telling a story happened between a teacher and students since "Cowherd class spring". As before,such a moving story made me crying many times out of control and trapped me in deep thinking and profound consideration after the ending even cannot be back.
        "Captain,oh my captain!" Teacher Keating put forward in his first class which indicated his special and unusual,untraditional,unconventional teaching methods and free thinking model. On the other side,it also predicted the inevitable tragedy. He brings the hope to those cute students and teach them what poetry really is and help them find what really matters in one's whole life; He brings sunlight to the dull helton school and disperse the haze in children's hearts; He was the god,the angel who is destined to save children out of fire and water. I feel very sorry for Neil's suicide. He is innocent and beautiful. He should have a bright tomorrow. He is so young. He shouldn't bear the whole responsibility of the completely frustrated ,disappointing,awful,losing family and school education. He IS innocent.
       The ending of this tragedy is that the death of Neil and the helpless leaving of teacher Keating. When he came back to fetch his personal items, another teacher is going to teach the chapter witch just have been ripped out, the teacher ordered one student reading it by his own book.Mr Keating was beside. However ironic it is ! Just before Mr Keating walked to the door, Todd couldn't help himself anymore. He jumped on to the desk firmly with fear just as days ago Mr Keating taught them. Then ,one after another students followed Todd. Mr Keating said twice thanks and then left. It's absolutely a significant scene. No beautiful words can describe it.