我們都將死去

When were you most happy?
Now.
And when were you least happy?
Now.
What do you love?
What do I love?
Say everything.
Let's see.
Water.
Fish in it.
And hedgehogs. I love hedgehogs.
And what else?
Marmite.
I'm addicted.
And baths. But not with other people.
Islands.
And your handwriting.
I could go on all day.
Go on all day.
My husband.
And what do you hate most?
A lie.
What do you hate most?
Ownership.
Being owned.
When you leave, you should forget me.

「你最快樂是什麼時候？」
「現在。」
「你最不快樂又是什麼時候？」
「也是現在。」
「你愛什麼？」
「我愛水，也愛水中游魚。我也愛刺頭豬。也愛麵包醬，愛得要命。也愛洗澡，但不愛跟別人一起洗澡。也愛島嶼。也愛你的筆跡。愛我的丈夫。」
「你最討厭什麼？」
「謊言。」
「你又最討厭什麼？」
「佔有別人，被人佔有。你離開以後就該把我忘掉。」

My darling, I'm waiting for you.
How long is a day in the dark? Or a week?
The fire is gone now...and I'm horribly cold.
I really ought to drag myself outside, but then there'd be the sun.
I'm afraid I waste the light on the paintings and on writing these words.
We die.
We die rich with lovers and tribes, tastes we have swallowed, bodies we have entered, and swum up like rivers. Fears we've hidden in, like this wretched cave.
I want all this marked on my body. We're the real countries. Not the boundaries drawn on maps, the names of powerful men.
I know you'll come and carry me out into the palace of winds. That's all I've wanted, to walk in such a place with you, with friends. An Earth without maps.
The lamp's gone out, and I'm writing in the darkness.

」我們都將死去，我們將與愛的人一起充實而熱烈的死去。我們嚥下彼此的味道；交換彼此的身軀，浮游於愛河之上；恐懼時我們躲藏起來，正如這淒涼的洞穴。我要所有這些都鐫刻在我的身體上。我們才是真實的國家，並非畫在地圖上的邊界所示的，以掌權者命名的國家。「


三聯生活週刊：美麗和傷痛總是要在一個故事裡共生、糾纏，瞬間迸發力量推至永恆。在人性最幽微的深處，我們除了嘆息和不妄斷，什麼都不該做。 「在一半的時間裡，我不能沒有你，在另一半的時間裡，我又覺得無所謂，這不在於我愛你多少，而是我能忍受多少。」——原著作者達翁傑