有一種釋懷叫"It's not your fault."

是的，看了電影——《驕陽似我》
不敢說自己就像劇中的那個男孩一樣是個天才，不敢說自己和他有一模一樣的遭遇——孤兒，甚至我不敢說自己現在的生活和他是相似的，但是我敢說、他的遭遇和我的有點兒類似。
最讓我受刺激的場景是在心理師的房間中，威爾最後一次去做治療，心理師一次次對他重複著說：「It's not your fault."
"Yeah, I know that"
"No, listen to me. It's not your fault."
"Yeah, it's not my fault."
"No, it's not your fault."
"Yes, I know."
"No, you don't konw that. It's not your fault."
"Hey, please don't fuck me up."
"It's not your fault."
"Fuck you."
"It's not your fault."
...
"It's not your fault."
Will cried...
I saw this before in one book named .
I had done some piece of the therapies mentioned on that.
One simple but mentioned many times point is that "this is not your fault." (you means the masochist)

I'm not that guy who live unsuccessfully try to dig a hole and find a reason from his parents.
Because I live good, pretty nice.
Occassionally, I cannot control my temper.
This is not my fault, but is my problem, the most serious one.
That's the reason why I wanna figure it out.

1. I am not a loser.
2. I have unsolved problem.
3. It must be solved sooner or later and as soon as possible.

Sometimes, I have to face conflict and embarrassment.
During pretty much of my time, I try to avoid them.
I am good and not good.
They are called contradiction, but not abnormal.
It's definitely hundred percent normal.

Thank you, Harvard.
Thanks for this movie.
It's not my fault.
I already know that.

The thing I have not done yet are solving my problem and have a good cry.
I know.
I just know.
It's not my fault.

(劇情對話是根據回憶寫的，大致是這個節奏，並不洩漏劇情）