靜物
2014-12-13 23:27:15
The poet must die.
與《雪花秘扇》有異曲同工之處,都在講女性的人生與命運及只有女性之間才能互相理解,彼此安慰,除此此外的那些——男人、孩子、食物、活動等等都像另一個世界的存在,「false comfort」。
記一些台詞:
stay close.
-All I want to do is give a party.
-And then?
-I know why he does that. He does that deliberately. He did it this morning. He gives me that look.
-What look?
-Just saying...your life is trivial. You are so trivial. Just daily stuff, schedules, parties, details. That's what he means. That's what he's saying.
-Mom, it only matters if you think it's true. Well, do you? Tell me.
-When I'm with him, I feel...Yes, I am living. When i'm not with him, yes, everything does seem sort of...silly. I don't mean with you. Never with you. It's all the rest of it.
-Sally?
-The rest of it. False comfort.
-Because?
-If you say to me when were you happiest...
-Mom...
-Tell me the moment you were the happiest.
-I know, I know. It was years ago. All you are saying is, you were once young.
-I remember one morning, getting up at dawn, there was such a sense of possibility. You know the feeling? I remember I was thinking to myself: so this is the beginning of happiness, this is where it starts, and there will always be more. It never occurred to me. It was not the beginning. It was happiness. It was the moment. Right then.
The poet will die. The visionary.
Who is this party for?
I'm terrified. Only I know she could disappear.
This feeling of unworthiness. You survive, and they don't.
Dear Leonard, to look life in the face,always to look life in the face. To know what,for what it is. And last to know it,to love it for what it is. And then, to put it away. Leonard, always the years between us,always the years, always the love, always the hours.