some lines

1.

Liz presentation: It begins when the object of your affection bestows upon you a heady hellucinogenic dose of something you have never even dared to admit you wanted an emotional speed-ball of thunderous love and excitement.As soon you start craving that attention with the hungry obsesion of any junkie.When it's withheld, you turn sick; crazy, not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouraged this addiction in the first place, but now refuses to pony up the good stuff.

Liz的演講：這開始於當你喜愛的對象，讓你對一種你都不敢承認你想擁有的東西有種強烈的夢幻感，一種強烈的愛與刺激的情感速度球。很快地你開始渴求那種注意力，就像癮君子的毒癮一樣，當這種情緒被克制時，你變得病怏怏和瘋狂，更別提對一開始就讓你上癮，但現在卻不給你好貨的毒販子的憎惡。


Goddamn him, he used to give it to you for free. Next stage finds you skinny, shaking in a cornet certain only that you'd sell your soul just to have that one thing one more timel; meatwhile the object of your adoration is now repulsed by you.He looks at you like someone he's never met before.The irony is you can hardly blame him, I mean, check yourself out. You are a mess.Unrecognizble even to your own eyes.

去他的，他過去都是免費給的。接下來，你瘦的皮包骨頭，在角落裡發抖，很顯然只有你一個人不惜出賣自己的靈魂，為了能再一次擁有那種被關注被關懷的感覺；同時現在你的愛慕對像被你排擠。他看著你就彷彿未曾謀面的人一樣。諷刺的是，你卻不能怪他，我的意思是，看看你自己，一團糟，自己都認不出自己了。


You have now reached infatuation's final destination,and the complete and merciless devluation of self.

你最後到達了痴迷的最終階段，不帶一絲憐憫的自我貶低。

　　
2.

要得到長久幸福，必須隨時隨地了解自己的所在。這個地方出於絕妙的平衡之中，正是天地交匯之處。沒有太多神學因素，也沒有太多人性私慾，否則生命就會過於瘋狂。你若失去這種平衡，就會失去力量。

　　
有時，為愛失去平衡，是平衡的一部份。


（2015年7月28日）