捕食抑鬱

Lizzy和參演《神奇動物在哪裡》的英國演員Katherine Waterston（羅女郎？）在本片中奉獻了一場演技盛宴。影片觸及了關於家庭、愛情等多方面的話題，但看下來，我的初步印象更多的是「自我與友情關係」的角力上。影片給出的幾場男友尷尬到落荒而逃的女孩之間的對話，直戳女孩友情溫情外表之下九曲十八彎的內裡——退與進，鬆手與無法鬆手。像影片的劇情一下，友誼無法描述，卻可以是起伏不斷，乃至駭人驚悚的。

Catherine最後對Rich的質問，讓我不禁想到一個陰暗的可能：為什麼說要把所有讓她覺得沮喪/讓她恨的人砍出自己生活的Ginny卻把在父親自殺、男友（丈夫？）分手後心理幾乎奔潰的C留在了身邊？

I just wanted to finally purge all of that from my life. I had already cut out so many worthless and negative people who brought me nothing but annoyance or distraction, so I figured why should she be any different?
I wish I could have relationships with some people who I can't, but once they become just ciphers or, you know, energy drains, or they become someone who distracts or depresses me, I have to have
nothing to do with them. I can't help it.
No, I can't. I've tried. I just hate them, and I hate being around them, and I hate talking to them. I love eliminating those enemies from every aspect of my life.

— Ginny (37』)

是出於高尚的友誼，還是有和Rich一樣的險惡用心？愛情是迷，多年前的拋棄、對現實的逃避，依舊讓女孩飛蛾撲火地撲向沒有未來的愛情。那麼，友情呢？究竟是什麼維繫了友誼？

Cat與Ginny畫肖像的那場對話，真實到刺骨寒意爬上背脊。

- I just don't really feel like I exist anymore. And the only two people that really cared about me abandoned me... In one form or another.
- I care about you.
- No, you don't.

結尾的擁抱是不是對「關係的維持」的謎團給出了答案？維持擁抱的可以是愛，也可以是互舔傷口的平等。人為什麼要「關係」？最終還是為了自己。

- I know you've been going through a hard time, and I just wanted to apologize if I really wasn't there for you.
- Well, maybe someday you'll be going through this shit, and I won't be there for you, and then we'll be even.
- God, I hope so.

抑鬱為什麼存在呢？因為世界提供了環境，有人期盼著抑鬱之果的成熟，而後一口下肚。   舉報