La La Land愛樂之城，你可曾記得夢想的模樣？

幾十年來，幾乎沒有看哪部片子，有如此深的感觸。這種感受的強度，讓我自己都覺得詫異。

它深入內心和骨髓，甚至覺得胸口隱隱作痛，能讓我沉浸在荒涼壯闊的心境中，持久，不散。

原本以為,《愛樂之城》只是導演大玩色彩遊戲和百老匯歌舞橋段的熱鬧歌舞片，於是就傻傻看著男女主在有路燈的洛杉磯夜景下調情打趣。

然而，隨著劇情開展，我的情緒開始戲劇化轉變。

在Mia那次關鍵的試鏡時，當「The Fools Who Dream」的曲調響起，我被她娓娓道來的故事吸引，被帶入她所營造的氣氛，陷入沉思、感動，內心有不明物開始湧動、共鳴。

當她唱著
「Here's to the ones who dream.
Foolish as they may seem.
Here's to the hearts that ache.
Here's to the mess we make.」
我的眼角，開始滴淚。


Mia有夢想，小賽有夢想，並且都在嚴酷現實中堅持。而我，已經忘記曾經夢想的模樣。

我知道它曾經存在，卻不知何時灰飛煙滅？或許，它一直在那裡，不然我為什麼總有現實世界以外的堅持？

是曾想成為畫家的夢想？還是想創作出激勵人心的作品？或是希望遊走世界各地？或是……

反正我已經想不起，最初夢想的模樣。

然而，某部電影、某本書、某個人、某件事，隱約還能讓我回憶起夢想的碎片，讓我感受到，它依然深埋在，某個佈滿塵埃的地方。
 
我發現自己還能跟同樣追夢的人們，心靈相通。被他們的某句話，所打動。

年齡的數字越來越大，我仍然處在Mia在咖啡店打工，不停努力參加試鏡的階段，而夢想的樣子，早已模糊。

想起有天接孩子放學，當他看到走廊里貼著「少壯不努力，老大徒傷悲」時就問我：「為什麼是老大傷悲呢？」 我說：「這裡的老大，是說人長大的意思。年輕時沒有好好努力，年紀大了就只能傷心了。」

這說的，難道不是現在的自己？

可我分明還是能感覺到，內心夢想的微弱星光，默默讓我一直前行、追尋。

儘管現實生活，已經把腳下的道路踩得泥濘，我還是懷著一顆被洗禮歷練過的心，向前。

我不知道終點在何方，或許在路上的經歷，才是我來人世走一趟的最大收穫？


"The Fools Who Dream"
(performed by Emma Stone)

My aunt used to live in Paris.
I remember, she used to come home and tell us these stories about being abroad and I remember she told us that she jumped into the river once, barefoot.

She smiled...

Leapt, without looking
And tumbled into the Seine
The water was freezing
She spent a month sneezing
But said she would do it again

Here's to the ones who dream
Foolish as they may seem
Here's to the hearts that ache
Here's to the mess we make

She captured a feeling
Sky with no ceiling
The sunset inside a frame

She lived in her liquor
And died with a flicker
I'll always remember the flame

Here's to the ones who dream
Foolish as they may seem
Here's to the hearts that ache
Here's to the mess we make

She told me:
"A bit of madness is key
To give us new colors to see
Who knows where it will lead us?
And that's why they need us"

So bring on the rebels
The ripples from pebbles
The painters, and poets, and plays

And here's to the fools who dream
Crazy as they may seem
Here's to the hearts that break
Here's to the mess we make

I trace it all back to then
Her, and the snow, and the Seine
Smiling through it
She said she'd do it again.


「Another Day of Sun」

影片開場，在洛杉磯擁堵的高速公路上的一段歌舞，充滿了青春活力，以及加州陽光般燦爛的情緒，不論受到多少挫折，太陽都會照常升起。

「And when they let you down
You'll get up off the ground
'Cause morning rolls around
And it's another day of sun」


「Someone in the Crowd」

3位室友鼓勵Mia參加一個派對，認為說不定就能碰到讓她們成名的人，4位年輕女孩的裙子湊齊了紅、黃、藍、綠色，也許導演是想用天真的純色表現她們天真的夢想？

「Someone in the crowd could be the one you need to know
The someone who could lift you off the ground
Someone in the crowd could take you where you wanna go
Someone in the crowd could make you
Someone in the crowd could take you
Flying off the ground
If you're the someone ready to be found.」


「A Lovely Night」

這是Mia和小賽參加完派對後，在山坡上的一段歌舞。欣賞著洛杉磯美景，小賽卻說Mia不是他的菜，兩人不來電，浪費了美好的夜色。Mia也不甘示弱，兩人邊跳舞邊打情罵俏，很是有趣。

「This could never be
You're not the type for me

[Mia:]
Really?

[Sebastian:]
And there's not a spark in sight
What a waste of a lovely night」


「City of Stars」

這首算是Mia和小賽愛的告白曲，也是一直貫穿全片的主旋律。從之前兩人鬥嘴互不相讓，到彼此相愛，是因為他們發現對方都和自己一樣有著想追尋的夢想，開始互相理解，產生了共鳴。

[Sebastian:]
City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars
There's so much that I can't see
Who knows?
I felt it from the first embrace I shared with you

[Mia:]
That now our dreams
They've finally come true

City of stars
Just one thing everybody wants
There in the bars
And through the smokescreen of the crowded restaurants
It's love
Yes, all we're looking for is love from someone else

[Sebastian:]
A rush
[Mia:]
A glance
[Sebatian:]
A touch
[Mia:]
A dance

[Both:]
A look in somebody's eyes
To light up the skies
To open the world and send it reeling
A voice that says, I'll be here
And you'll be alright

I don't care if I know
Just where I will go
'Cause all that I need is this crazy feeling
A rat-tat-tat on my heart

[Sebastian:]
Think I want it to stay

City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars
[Mia:]
You never shined so brightly.


本文源於微信公眾號「文藝女船長」（微信號creative_joy）
  舉報