如果回到過去，我什麼都不改變

二十年前你腳上踏著converse，唱機放著David Bowie，胳臂插著海洛因管子，你說要是明兒吸維生素C違法，你就去吸維生素C。
二十年後你換了雙adi，喜歡拳擊，聽到搖滾樂都會紅著臉躲避，你回到老家說對不住哥們兒我二十年前那檔子事咱能不能別提。
 
你還遇上了中年危機，你三個老兄弟一個打算自殺一個老二不聽話一個倒騰著小破酒吧。
你以為這些人都變成了只能談從前的無聊的中老年，這事兒就算你回來了也不會有什麼改變，但真當碰了頭後你才發現這夥人竟然還是一如既往的賤。
偷錢飆車，吸過時的海洛因，玩上世紀的桌上足球遊戲，自拍直播還當自己是小年輕。二十年前的那道坎其實誰也沒跨過去，壓住車頭蓋咧出一口白牙的場景歷歷在目，在熟悉的街頭你又想起舊日的激情。



回到熟悉的房間，你再次慶幸自己沒有「選擇歷史重演，選擇認命，選擇更容易得到的生活，選擇失望」，唱針放上唱盤，夢迴從前。「如果可以回到過去，我也什麼都不改變」。



最後附上兩部電影中經典的」Choose life」片段（來源：網路）
 
1、
 
Choose life.
選擇生活。
 
Choose a job.
選擇一份活兒。
 
Choose a career.
選擇一項事業。
 
Choose a family, Choose a fucking bigtelevision,
選擇一個家庭，選擇一個賊幾把大的電視機，
 
Choose washing machines, cars, compact discplayers,and electrical tin openers.
選擇洗衣機、汽車、鐳射音響，還有電動開罐器。
 
Choose good health, low cholesterol anddental insurance.
選擇小心保養自己的身體、低膽固醇和牙科保險。
 
Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments.
選擇固定利率的抵押貸款。
 
Choose a starter home.
選擇政府提供的低價而體面的住宅。
 
Choose your friends.
選擇你的朋友。
 
Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.
選擇休閒裝和配套的旅行包。
 
Choose a three piece suite on hire purchasein a range of fucking fabrics.
選擇用分期付款買回同系列的他媽什麼織物做的三套件西裝。
 
Choose DIY and wondering who you are on aSunday morning.
選擇自己動手做，然後在某個星期天的早晨問自己我這是在哪兒呀。
 
Choose sitting on that couch watchingmind-numbing spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into yourmouth.
選擇坐在那張睡椅上看讓腦子發木腦漿被擠成稀屎狀的體育節目，一邊往自己嘴裡塞他媽的垃圾食物。
 
Choose rotting away at the end of it all,pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to theselfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself.
選擇在這一切的末尾爛掉，最後在一個破破爛爛的家裡遭兒女唾棄，當初你用精子弄出他們來代替你，現在對這些自私的、滿不在乎的小子們來說，你只是一個老厭物。
 
Choose your future.
選擇你的未來。
 
Choose life.
選擇生活。
 
But who would I want to do a thing like that?
但我是誰啊？我會想去做那些事情？
 
I chose not to choose life: I chosesomething else.
我選擇不選擇生活：我選擇一些別的什麼東西。
 
And the reasons? There are no reasons.
理由？沒有理由。
 
Who need reasons when you've got heroin?
有了海洛因，誰還需要理由呢？
 
 
2、
 
Choose... designer lingerie, in the vainhope of kicking some life back into a dead relationship.
選擇...選擇設計師內衣，空想著能和某人再續一段已經消逝的關係。
 
Choose handbags, choose high-heeled shoes,cashmere and silk, to make yourself feel what passes for happy.
選擇手包，選擇高跟鞋，羊絨和絲綢，把這當做你的快樂之源。
 
Choose an iPhone made in China by a womanwho jumped out of a window and stick it in the pocket of your jacket fresh froma South-Asian Firetrap.
選擇把一名已經跳樓的中國女工里做出的iPhone揣進在南亞血汗工廠里生產的夾克的口袋。
 
Choose Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat,Instagram and a thousand others ways to spew your bile across people you'venever met.
選擇Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat, Instagram還有一千種別的方式和你從沒見過的人大倒苦水。
 
Choose updating your profile, tell theworld what you had for breakfast and hope that someone, somewhere cares.
選擇更新你的資料，告訴世界你早飯吃了什麼並且希望某地某人真的關心。
 
Choose looking up old flames, desperate tobelieve that you don't look as bad as they do.
選擇拜訪舊愛，拼命相信你沒有她們看起來一樣糟。
 
Choose live-blogging, from your first wank'til your last breath; human interaction reduced to nothing more than data.
選擇直播，從你第一次手淫到你最後一次呼吸;人們之間的聯繫減少到除了數據一無所有。
 
Choose ten things you never knew about celebritieswho've had surgery.
選擇你不知道的十個做過手術的名人。
 
Choose screaming about abortion.
選擇對墮胎大驚小怪。
 
Choose rape jokes, slut-shaming, revengeporn and an endless tide of depressing misogyny.
選擇開強姦的笑話，說別人是婊子，傳前任的性愛錄像和無窮無盡令人壓抑的厭女症。
 
Choose 9/11 never happened, and if it did,it was the Jews.
選擇9/11不曾真的發生，如果發生了，那就是猶太人幹的。
 
Choose a zero-hour contract and a two-hourjourney to work.
選擇隨叫隨到的零時工合同，還要花兩小時通勤。
 
And choose the same for your kids, onlyworse, and maybe tell yourself that it's better that they never happened.
選擇給你的孩子們一樣的東西，只是更糟，也許告訴自己不生下他們才更好。
 
And then sit back and smother the pain withan unknown dose of an unknown drug made in somebody's fucking kitchen.
之後坐下吸入一份某人廚房裡做出來的劑量不明的未知藥物來緩解疼痛。
 
Choose unfulfilled promise and wishing you'ddone it all differently.
選擇不履行承諾，之後又希望自己從頭來過。
 
Choose never learning from your ownmistakes. Choose watching history repeat itself.
選擇從不吸取自己錯誤的教訓，選擇看著歷史一遍遍重演。
 
Choose the slow reconciliation towards whatyou can get, rather than what you always hoped for. Settle for less and keep abrave face on it.
選擇慢慢屈就於你能得到的，而不是你一直都想要的。見好就收但面子上還要硬撐。
 
Choose disappointment and choose losing theones you love, then as they fall from view, a piece of you dies with them untilyou can see that one day in the future, piece by piece, they will all be goneand there'll be nothing left of you to call alive or dead.
選擇失望，選擇痛失所愛，隨她們漸行漸遠，你的一部份也與她們一併消逝。你知道將來的某一天，一點又一點，它們都消逝無蹤 那時你的自我一點不剩，生死難明。
 
Choose your future, Veronika. Choose life.
選擇你的未來，Veronika，選擇人生。